Missing You!

Dear Mom,

I have been missing you so much!  I love the fall and we would always spend time together...going to the Big E, other fairs around the state, and the Women's Expo.  Last week I went to the Big E.  I met some friends from church up there.  As I was driving up, I found myself in tears.  First of all it was a beautiful day and the clouds were big, white, puffy clouds...lately that was something you would notice and mention.  Then this was the first time going without you.  I also drove the back way and went through Suffield, and that reminded me of the winter day that we visited some of the old houses to see them decorated for Christmas.  It just reminded me of all the things I would drag you to do with me, and you always loved going to all these places with me.  We definitely have made some great memories doing all of the things we did.  So, I really missed you last Saturday.  I did have a good time with my friends from church, but of course it's not the same.  I couldn't stay as long as we normally might because I had to make sure to get back home to Bella.  So, I didn't get to some of the places we would normally go.  And I didn't get as much fair food as we normally would, but I did have our favorite...fried dough!!!  I also got the kettle corn from New Hampshire that we really loved.  Didn't get to the animals though, which was sad, that was always my favorite part.  I would always ask you if we could get some of them for the house. :)  You not being such a fan of animals would always tell me no way!  I did get to watch a little of the horse show, though.  Then I had to leave to get back to Bella.  I also cried most of the way home, just missing you!  Today I went to the Women's Expo.  I was trying to remember, but I really think that you went with me last year.  I don't remember for sure, but it seems like I remember that.  We always enjoyed going and walking around to the different booths, but you started spending less time walking around because it got too much for you.  We would spend a good amount of time watching the demonstrations and dance acts on the stage.  I enjoyed watching some great ones today, too.  I had a nice time, missed not having you with me.  I went by myself, but just enjoyed going around at my pace and staying until I was ready to go.  It's going to be different this fall, even though you had stopped doing some of the things with me, I could at least come home and share it with you.  Also, I didn't do as much last fall because I didn't want to leave you for long.  This year I can do a little more, but I miss having you to enjoy those times with.  You were my favorite person to experience all of those things with, so it will be hard doing them without you, but what great memories that we had together!  It is difficult to do these without you, but I'm going to keep on, because I love them and can remember great times when we did them together.  And I love those memories!!! ...as much as I love you!  Miss you!!!